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LETTERS OF ST. AUGUSTIN
LETTERS I TO XXII
LETTER I. (A.D. 386.)
TO HERMOGENIANUS1 AUGUSTIN SENDS GREETING
1. I WOULD not presume, even in playful discussion, to attack the philosophers
of the Academy; for when could the authority of such eminent men fail to move
me, did I not believe their views to be widely different from those commonly
ascribed to them ? Instead of confuting them, which is beyond my power, I have
rather imitated them to the best of my ability. For it seems to me to have
been suitable enough to the times in which they flourished, that whatever issued
pure from the fountainhead of Platonic philosophy should be rather conducted
into dark and thorny thickets for the refreshment of a very few men, than left
to flow in open meadow4 and, where it would be impossible to keep it clear
and pure from the inroads of the vulgar herd. I use the word herd advisedly;
for what is more brutish than the opinion that the soul is material ? For defence
against the men who held this, it appears to me that such an art and method
of concealing the truth 3 was wisely contrived by ; the new Academy. But in
this age of ours, when we see none who are philosophers,- for I do not consider
those who merely wear the cloak of a ,philosopher to be worthy of that venerable
name,--it seems to me that men (those, at least, whom the teaching of the Academicians
has, through the subtlety of the terms in which it was expressed, deterred
from attempting to understand its actual meaning) should be brought back to
the hope of discovering the truth, lest that which was then for the time useful
in eradicating obstinate error, should begin now to hinder the casting in of
the seeds of true knowledge.
2. In
that age the studies of contending schools of philosophers were pursued with
such ardour, that
the one thing
to be feared was the possibility of error
being approved. For every one who had been driven by the arguments of the sceptical
philosophers from a position which he had supposed to be impregnable, set himself
to seek some other in its stead, with a perseverance and caution corresponding
to the greater industry which was characteristic of the men of that time, land
the strength of the persuasion then prevailing, that truth, though deep and
hard to be deciphered, does lie hidden in the nature of things and of the human
mind. Now, however, such is the indisposition to strenuous exertion, and the
indifference to the liberal arts, that so soon as it is noised abroad that,
in the opinion of the most acute philosophers, truth is unattainable, men send
their minds to sleep, and cover them up for ever. For they presume not, forsooth,
to imagine themselves to be so superior in discernment to those great men,
that they shall find out what, during his singularly long life, Carneades,4
with all his diligence, talents, and leisure, besides his extensive and varied
learning, failed to discover. And if, contending somewhat against indolence,
they rouse themselves so far as to read those books in which it is, as it were, >roved
that the perception of truth is denied to man, they relapse into lethargy so
profound, that not even by the heavenly trumpet can they be aroused.
3. Wherefore, although I accept with the greatest pleasure your candid estimate
of my brief I treatise, and esteem you so much as to rely not less on the sagacity
of your judgment than on the sincerity of your friendship, I beg you to give
more particular attention to one point, and to write me again concerning it,
-- namely, whether you approve of that which, in the end of the third book,s
I have given as my opinion, in a tone perhaps of hesitation rather than of
certainty, but in statements, as I think, more likely to be found useful than
to be rejected as incredible. But whatever be the value of those treatises
[the books against the Academicians], what I most rejoice in is, not that I
have vanquished! the Academicians, as you express it (using the language rather
of friendly partiality than of truth), but that I have broken and cast away
from me the odious bonds by which I was kept back from the nourishing breasts
of philosophy, through despair of attaining that truth which is the food of
the soul.
LETTER II. (A.D. 386.)
TO ZENOBIUS AUGUSTIN SENDS GREETING.1
1. We are, I suppose, both agreed in maintaining that all things with which
our bodily senses acquaint us are incapable of abiding un-! changed for a single
moment, but, on the contrary, are moving and in perpetual transition,; and
have no present reality, that is, to use the language of Latin philosophy,
do not exist.2 Accordingly, the true and divine philosophy admonishes us to
check and subdue the love of these things as most dangerous and disastrous,'
in order that the mind, even while using this body, may be wholly occupied
and warmly interested in those things which are ever the same, and which owe
their attractive power to no transient charm. Although this is all true, and
although my mind, without the aid of the senses, sees you as you really are,
and as an object which may be loved without disquietude, nevertheless I must
own that when you are absent in body, and separated by distance, the pleasure
of meeting and seeing you is one which I miss, and which, therefore, while
it is attainable, I earnestly covet. This my infirmity (for such it must be)
is one which, if I know you aright, you are well pleased to find in me; and
though you wish every good thing for your best and most loved friends, you
rather fear than desire that they should be cured of this infirmity. If, however,
your soul has attained to such strength that you are able both to discern this
snare, and to smile at those who are caught therein, truly you are great, and
different from what I am. For my part, as long as I regret the absence of any
one from me, so long do I wish him to regret my absence. At the same time,
I watch and strive to set my love as little as possible on anything which can
be separated from me against my will. Regarding this as my duty, I remind you,
in the meantime, whatever be your frame of mind, that the discussion which
I have begun with you must be finished, if we care for each other. For I can
by no means consent to its being finished with Alypius, even if he wished it.
But he does not wish this; for he is not the man to join with me now in endeavouring,
by as many letters as we could send, to detain you with us, when you decline
this, under the pressure of some necessity to us unknown.
LETTER III. (A.D. 387.)
TO NEBRIDIUS AUGUSTIN SENDS GREETING.3
1. Whether I am to regard it as the effect of what I may call your flattering
language, or whether the thing be really so, is a point which I am unable to
decide. For the impression was sudden, and I am not yet resolved how far it
deserves to be believed. You wonder what this can be. What do you think? You
have almost made me believe, not indeed that I am happy--for that is the heritage
of the wise alone -- but that I am at least in a sense happy: as we apply the
designation man to beings who deserve the name only in a sense if compared
with Plato's ideal man, or speak of things which we see as round or square,
although they differ widely from the perfect figure which is discerned by the
mind of a few. I read your letter beside my lamp after supper: immediately
after which I lay down, but not at once to sleep; for on my bed I meditated
long, and talked thus with myself -- Augustin addressing and answering Augustin: "Is
it not true, as Nebridius affirms, that I am happy? .... Absolutely true it
cannot be, for that I am still far from wise he himself would not deny." "But
may not a happy life be the lot even of those who are not wise ?" "" That
is scarcely possible; because, in that case, lack of wisdom would be a small
misfortune, and not, as it actually is, the one and only source of unhappiness." "How,
then, did Nebridius come to esteem me happy ? Was it that, 'after reading these
little books of mine, he ventured to pronounce me wise? Surely the vehemence
of joy could not make him so rash, especially seeing that he is a man to whose
judgment I well know so much weight is to be attached. I have it now: he wrote
what he thought would be most gratifying to me, because he had been gratified
by what I had written in those treatises; and he wrote in a joyful mood, without
accurately weighing the sentiments entrusted to his joyous pen. What, then,
would he have said if he had read my Soliloquies ? He would have rejoiced with
much more exultation, and yet could find no loftier name to bestow on me than
this which he has already given in calling me happy. All at once, then, he
has lavished on me the highest possible name, and has not reserved a single
word to add to my praises, if at any time he were made by me more joyful than
he is now. See what joy does."
2. But where is that truly happy life? where? ay, where? Oh! if it were attained,
one would spurn the atomic theory of Epicurus. Oh! if it were attained, one
would know that there is nothing here below but the visible world. Oh ! if
it were attained, one would know that in the rotation of a globe on its axiS,
the motion of points near the poles is less rapid than of those which lie half
way between them, --and other such like things which we likewise know. But
now, how or in what sense can I be called happy, who know not why the world
is such in size as it is, when the proportions of the figures according to
which it is framed do in no way hinder its being enlarged to any extent desired
? Or how might it not be said to me- nay, might we not be compelled to admit
that matter is infinitely divisible; so that, starting from any given base
(so to speak), a definite number of corpuscles must rise to a definite and
ascertainable quantity ? Wherefore, seeing that we do not admit that any particle
is so small as to be insusceptible of further diminution, what compels us to
admit that any assemblage of parts is so great that it cannot g possibly be
increased ? Is there perchance some I important truth in what I once suggested
confidentially to Alypius, that since number, as cognisable by the understanding,
is susceptible of infinite augmentation, but not of infinite diminution,' because
we cannot reduce it lower than to the units, number, as cognisable by the senses
(and this, of course, just means quantity of material parts or bodies), is
on the contrary susceptible of infinite diminution, but has a limit to its
augmentation ? This may perhaps be the reason why philosophers justly pronounce
riches to be found in the things about which the understanding is exercised,
and poverty in those things with which the senses have to do. For what is poorer
than to be susceptible of endless diminution ? and what more truly rich than
to increase as much as you will, to go whither you will, to return when you
will and as far as you will, and to have as the object of your love that which
is large and cannot be made less ? For whoever understands these numbers loves
nothing so much as the unit; and no wonder, seeing that it is through it that
all the other numbers can be loved by him. But to return: Why is the world
the size that it is, seeing that it might have been greater or less ? I do
not know: its dimensions are what they are, and I can go no further. Again:
Why is the world in the place it now occupies rather than in another? Here,
too, it is better not to put the question; for whatever the answer might be,
other questions would still remain. This one thing' greatly perplexed me, that
bodies could be infinitely subdivided. To this perhaps an answer has been given,
by setting over against it the converse property of abstract number [viz. its
susceptibility of infinite multiplication].
3. But
stay: let us see what is that indefinable object' which is suggested to the
mind• This world with which our senses acquaint us is surely the
image of some world which the understanding apprehends• Now it is a strange
phenomenon which we observe in the images which mirrors reflect to us, -- that
however great the mirrors be, they do not make the images larger than the objects
placed before them, be they ever so small; but in small mirrors, such as the
pupil of the eye, although a large surface be placed over against them, a very
small image is formed, proportioned to the size of the mirror.s Therefore if
the mirrors be reduced in size, the images reflected in them are also reduced;
but it is not possible for the images to be enlarged by enlarging the mirrors.
Surely there is in this something which might reward further investigation;
but meanwhile, I must sleep.4 Moreover, if I seem to Nebridius to be happy,
it is not because I seek, but because perchance I have found something. What,
then, is that something ? Is it that chain of reasoning which I am wont so
to caress as if it were my sole treasure, and in which perhaps I take too much
delight ?
4. "Of what parts do we consist?" "Of soul and body•" "Which
of these is the nobler ?" "Doubtless the soul." "What do
men praise in the body? ....Nothing that I see but comeliness." "And
what is comeliness of body?" "Harmony of parts in the form, together
with a certain agreeableness of colour." "is this comeliness better
where it is true or where it is illusive?" "Unquestionably it is
better where it is true." "And where is it found true? In the [ soul." "The
soul, therefore, is to be loved more than the body; but in what part of the
soul does this truth reside ?" "In the mind and understanding." "With
what has the understanding to contend?" "With the senses•" "Must
we then resist the senses with all our might ?" "Certainly." "What,
then, if the things with which the senses acquaint us give us pleasure ? ....We
must prevent them from doing so." "How?" "By acquiring
the habit of doing without them, and desiring better things." "But
if the soul die, what then? .... Why, then truth dies, or intelligence is not
truth, or intelligence is not a part of the soul, Or that which has some part
immortal is liable to die: conclusions all of which I demonstrated long ago
in my Soliloquies to! be absurd because impossible; and I am firmly persuaded
that this is the case, but somehow through the 'influence of custom in the
experience of evils we are terrified, and hesitate. But even granting, finally,
that the soul dies, which I do not see to be in any way possible, it remains
nevertheless true that a happy life does not consist in the evanescent joy
which sensible objects can yield: this I have pondered deliberately, and proved."
Perhaps it is on account of reasonings such as these that I have been judged
by my own Nebridius to be, if not absolutely happy, at least in a sense happy.
I,et me also judge myself to be happy: for what do I lose thereby, or why should
I grudge to think well of my own estate ? Thus I talked with myself, then prayed
according to my custom, and fell asleep.
5. These things I have thought good to write to you. For it gratifies me that
you should thank me when I write freely to you whatever crosses my mind; and
to whom can I more willingly write nonsense' than to one whom I cannot displease
? But if it depends upon fortune whether one: man love another or not, look
to it, I pray you, how can I be justly called happy when I am I so elated with
joy by fortune's favours, and avowedly desire that my store of such good things
may be largely increased ? For those who are most truly wise, and whom alone
it is right to pronounce happy, have maintained that fortune's favours ought
not to be the objects of either fear or desire.
Now here
I used the word "cupi:"2 will you tell me whether it should
be "cupi" or "cupiri?" And I am glad this has come in the
way, for I wish you to instruct me in the inflexion of this verb "cupio," since,
when I compare similar verbs with it, my uncertainty as to the proper inflexion
increases. For "curio" is like "fugio," "sapio," "jacio," "capio;" but
whether the infinitive mood is "fugiri" or "fugi," "sapiri" or "sail," I
do not know. I might regard "jaci" and "capi"3 as parallel
instances answering my question as to the others, were I not afraid lest some
grammarian should "catch" and "throw" me like a ball in
sport wherever he pleased, by reminding me that the form of the supines "jactum" and "capture" is
different from that found in the other verbs "fugitum," "cupitum" and "sapitum." As
to these three words, moreover, I am likewise ignorant whether the penultimate
is to be pronounced long and with circumflex accent, or without accent and
short. I would like to provoke you to write a reasonably long letter. I beg
you to let me have what it will take i some time to read. For it is far beyond
my power to express the pleasure which I find in reading what you write.
LETTER IV. ( A.D. 387.)
TO NEBRIDIUS AUGUSTIN SENDS GREETING.
1. It is very wonderful how completely I was taken by surprise, when, on searching
to discover which of your letters still remained unanswered, I found only one
which held me as your debtor, --that, namely, in which you request me to tell
you how far in this my leisure, which you suppose to be great, and which you
desire to share with me, I am making progress in learning to discriminate those
things in nature with which the senses are conversant, from those about which
the understanding is employed. But I suppose it is not unknown to you, that
if one becomes more and more fully imbued with false opinions, the more fully
and intimately one exercises himself in them, the corresponding effect is still
more easily produced in the mind by contact with truth. Nevertheless my progress,
like our physical development, is so gradual, that it is difficult to define
its steps distinctly, just as though there iS a very great difference between
a boy and a young man, no one, if daily questioned from his boyhood onward,
could at an.y one date say that now he was no more a boy, but a young man.
2. I would
not have you, however, so to apply this illustration as to suppose that,
in the vigour
of a more
powerful understanding, I have arrived as it
were at the beginning of the soul's manhood. For I am yet but a boy, though
perhaps, as we say, a promising boy, rather than a good-for-nothing. For although
the eyes of my mind are for the most part perturbed and oppressed by the distractions
produced by blows inflicted through things sensible, they are revived and raised
up again by that brief process of reasoning: "The mind and intelligence
are superior to the eyes and the common faculty of sight; which could not be
the case unless the things which we perceive by intelligence were more real
than the things which we perceive by the faculty .of sight." I pray you
to help me in examining whether any valid objection can be brought against
this reasoning. By it, meanwhile, I find myself restored and refreshed; and
when, after calling upon God for help, I begin to rise to Him, and to those
things which are in the highest sense real, I am at times satisfied with such
a grasp and enjoyment of the things which eternally abide, that I sometimes
wonder at my requiring any such reasoning as I have above given to persuade
me of the reality of those things which in my soul are as truly present to
me as I am to myself.
Please look over your letters yourself, for I own that you will be in this
matter at greater pains than I, in order to make sure that I am not perchance
unwittingly still owing an answer to any of them: for I can hardly believe
that I have so soon got from under the burden of debts which I used to reckon
as so numerous; albeit, at the same time, I cannot doubt that you have had
some letters from me to which I have as yet received no reply.
LETTER V. (A.D. 388.)
TO AUGUSTIN NEBRIDIUS SENDS GREETING.
Is it true, my beloved Augustin, that you are spending your strength and patience
on the affairs of your fellow-citizens (in Thagaste), and that the leisure
from distractions which you so earnestly desired is still withheld from you
? Who, I would like to know, are the men who thus take advantage of your good
nature, and trespass on your time ? I believe that they do not know what you
love most and long for. Have you no friend at hand to tell them what your heart
is set upon ? Will neither Romanianus nor Lucinianus do this ? Let them hear
me at all events. I will proclaim aloud; I will protest that God is the supreme
object of your love, and that your heart's desire is to be His servant, and
to cleave to Him. Fain would I persuade you to come to my home in the country,
and rest here; I shall not be afraid of being denounced as a robber by those
countrymen of yours, whom you love only too well, and by whom you are too warmly
loved in return.
LETTER VI. (A.D. 389.)
TO AUGUSTIN NEBRIDIUS SENDS GREETING.
1. Your letters I have great pleasure in keeping as carefully as my own eyes.
For they are great, not indeed in length, but in the greatness of the subjects
discussed in them, and in the great ability With which the truth in regard
to these subjects is demonstrated. They shall bring to my ear the voice of
Christ, and the teaching of Plato and of Plotinus. To me, therefore, they shall
ever be pleasant Lo hear, because of their eloquent style; easy to read, because
of their brevity; and profitable to understand, because of the wisdom which
they contain. Be at pains, therefore, to teach me everything which, to your
judgment, commends itself as holy or good. As to this letter in particular,
answer it when you are ready to discuss a subtle problem in regard to memory,
and the images presented by the imagination.' My opinion is, that although
there can be such images independently of memory, there is no exercise of memory
independently of such images.2 You will say, What, then, takes place when memory
is exercised in recalling an act of understanding or of thought ? I answer
this objection by saying, that such acts can be recalled by memory for this
reason, that in the supposed act of understanding or of thought we gave birth
to something conditioned by space or by time, which is of such a nature that
it can be reproduced by the imagination: for either we connected the use of
words with the exercise of the understanding and with the thoughts, and words
are conditioned by time, and thus fall within the domain of the senses or of
the imaginative faculty; or if we did not join words with the mental act, our
intellect at all events experienced in the act of thinking something which
was of such a nature as could produce in the mind that which, by the aid of
the imaginative faculty, memory could recall. These things I have stated, as
usual, without much consideration, and in a somewhat confused manner: do you
examine them, and, rejecting what is false, acquaint me by letter with what
you hold as the truth on this subject.
2. Listen also to this question: Why, I should like to know, do we not affirm
that the phantasy [imaginative faculty] derives all its images from itself,
rather than say that it receives these from the senses ? For it is possible
that, as the intellectual faculty of the soul is indebted to the senses, not
for the objects upon which the intellect is exercised, but rather for the admonition
arousing it to see these objects, in the same manner the imaginative faculty
may be indebted to the senses, not for the images which are the objects upon
which it is exercised, but rather for the admonition arousing it to contemplate
these images. And perhaps it is in this way that we are to explain the fact
that the imagination perceives some objects which the senses never perceived,
whereby it is shown that it has all its images within itself, and from itself.
You will answer me what you think of this question also.
LETTER VII. (A.D. 389.)
TO NEBRIDIUS AUGUSTIN SENDS GREETiNG.
CHAP. I.- Memory may be exercised independently of such images as are presented
by the imagination.
1. I shall dispense with a formal preface, and to the subject on which you
have for some time wished to hear my opinion I shall address myself at once;
and this I do the more willingly, because the statement must take some time.
It seems
to you that there can be no exercise of memory without images, or the apprehension
of some
objects
presented by the imagination, which you have
been pleased to call "phantasiae." For my part, I entertain a different
opinion. In the first place, we must observe that the things which we remember
are not always things which are passing away, but are for the most part things
which are permanent. Wherefore, seeing that the function of memory is to retain
hold of what belongs to time past, it is certain that it embraces on the one
hand things which leave us, and on the other hand things from which we go away.
When, for example, I remember my father, the object which memory recalls is
one which has left me, and is now no more; but when I remember Carthage, the
object is in this case one which still exists, and which I have left. In both
cases, however, memory retains what belongs to past time. For I remember that
man and this city, not by seeing them now, but by having seen them in the past.
2. You perhaps ask me at this point, Why bring forward these facts ? And you
may do this the more readily, because you observe that in both the examples
quoted the object remembered can come to my memory in no other way than by
the apprehension of such an image as you affirm to be always necessary. For
my purpose it suffices meanwhile to have proved in this way that memory can
be spoken of as embracing also those things which have not yet passed away:
and now mark attentively how this supports my opinion. Some men raise a groundless
objection to that most famous theory invented by Socrates, according to which
the things that we learn are not introduced to our minds as new, but brought
back to memory by a process of recollection; supporting their objection by
affirming that memory 'has to do only with things which have passed away, whereas,
as Plato himself has taught, those things which we learn by the exercise of
the understanding are permanent, and being imperishable, cannot be numbered
among things which have passed away: the mistake into which they have fallen
arising obviously from this, that they do not consider i that it is only the
mental act of apprehension by which we have discerned these things which belongs
to the past; and that it is because we have, in the stream of mental activity,
left these behind, and begun in a variety of ways to attend to other things,
that we require to return to them by an effort of recollection, that is, by
memory. if, therefore, passing over other examples, we fix our thoughts upon
eternity itself as something which is for ever permanent, and consider, on
the one hand, that it does not require any image fashioned by the imagination
as the vehicle by which it may be introduced into the mind; and, on the other
hand, that it could never enter the mind otherwise than by our remembering
it,- we shall see that, in regard to some things at least, there can be an
exercise of memory without any image of the thing remembered being presented
by the imagination.
CHAP. II -- The mind is destitute of images presented by the imagination,
so long as it has not been informed by the senses of external things.
3. In the second place, as to your opinion that it is possible for the mind
to form to itself images of material things independently of the services of
the bodily senses, this is refuted by the following argument: -- If the mind
is able, before it uses the body as its instrument in perceiving material objects,
to form to itself the images of these; and if, as no sane man can doubt, the
mind received more reliable and correct impressions before it was involved
in the illusions which the senses produce, it follows that we must attribute
greater value to the impressions of men asleep than of men awake, [and of men
insane than of those who are free from such mental disorder: for they are,
in these states of mind, impressed by the same kind of images as impressed
them before they were indebted for information to these most deceptive messengers,
the senses; and thus, either the sun which they see must be more real than
the sun which is seen by men in their sound judgment and in their waking hours,
or that which is an illusion must be better than what is real. But if these
conclusions, my dear Nebridius, are, as they obviously are, wholly absurd,
it is demonstrated that the image of which you speak is nothing else than a
blow inflicted by the senses, the function of which in connection with these
images is not, as you write, the mere suggestion or admonition occasioning
their formation by the mind within itself, but the actual bringing in to the
mind, or, to speak more definitely, impressing upon it of the illusions to
which through the senses we are subject. The difficulty which you feel as to
the question how it comes to pass that we can conceive in thought, faces and
forms which we have never seen, is one which proves the acuteness of your mind.
I shall therefore do what may extend this letter beyond the usual length; not,
however, beyond the length which you will approve, for I believe that the greater
the fulness with which I write to you, the more welcome shall my letter be.
4. I perceive
that all those images which you as well as many others call phantasiae, may
be most
conveniently
and accurately divided into three classes,
according as they originate with the senses, or the imagination, or the faculty
of reason. Examples of the first class are when the mind forms within itself
and presents to me the image of your face, or of Carthage, or of our departed
friend Verecundus, or of any other thing at present or formerly existing, which
I have myself seen and perceived. Under the second class come. all things which
we imagine to have been, or to be so and so: e.g. when, for the sake of illustration
in discourse, we ourselves suppose things which have no existence, but which
are not prejudicial to truth; or when we call up to our own minds a lively
conception of the things described while we read history, or hear, or compose,
or refuse to believe fabulous narrations. Thus, according to my own fancy,
and as it may occur to my own mind, I picture to myself the appearance of AEneas,
or of Medea with her team of winged dragons, or of Chremes, or Parmeno.1 To
this class belong also those things which have been brought forward as true,
either by wise men wrapping up some truth in the folds of such inventions,
or by foolish men building up various kinds of superstition; e.g. the Phlegethon
of Tortures, and the five caves of the nation of darkness,' and the North Pole
supporting the heavens, and a thousand other prodigies of poets and of heretics.
Moreover, we often say, when carrying on a discussion, "Suppose that three
worlds, such as the one which we inhabit, were placed one above another;" or, "Suppose
the earth to be enclosed within a four-sided figure," and so on: for all
such things we picture to ourselves, and imagine according to the mood and
direction of our thoughts. As for the third class of images, it has to do chiefly
with numbers and measure; which are found partly in the nature of things, as
when the figure of the entire world is discovered, and an image consequent
upon this discovery is formed in the mind of one thinking upon it; and partly
in sciences, as in geometrical figures and musical harmonies, and in the infinite
variety of numerals: which, although they are, as I think, true in themselves
as objects of the understanding, are nevertheless the causes of illusive exercises
of the imagination, the misleading tendency of which reason itself can only
with difficulty withstand; although it is not easy to preserve even the science
of reasoning free from this evil, since in our logical divisions and conclusions
we form to ourselves, so to speak, calculi or counters to facilitate the process
of reasoning.
5. In this whole forest of images, I believe that you do not think that those
of the first class belong to the mind previous to the time when they find access
through the senses. On this we need not argue any further. As to the other
two classes a question might reasonably be raised, were it not manifest that
the mind is less liable to illusions when it has not yet been subjected to
the deceptive influence of the senses, and of things sensible; and yet who
can doubt that these images are much more unreal than those with which the
senses acquaint us? For the things which we suppose, or believe, or picture
to ourselves, are in every point wholly unreal; and the things which we perceive
by sight and the other senses, are, as you see, far more near to the truth
than these products of imagination. As to the third class, whatever extension
of body in space I figure to myself in my mind by means of an image of this
class, although it seems as if a process of thought had produced this image
by scientific reasonings which did not admit of error, nevertheless I prove
it to be deceptive, these same reasonings serving in turn to detect its falsity.
Thus it is wholly impossible for me i to believe [as, accepting your opinion,
I must believe] that the soul, while not yet using the .bodily senses, and
not yet rudely assaulted through these fallacious instruments by that which
is mortal and fleeting, lay under such ignominious subjection to illusions.
CHAP. III.- Objection answered.
6. "Whence then comes our capacity conceiving in thought things which
we have never seen?" What, think you, can be the cause of this, but a
certain faculty of diminution and addition which is innate in the mind, and
which it cannot but carry with it whithersoever it turns (a faculty which may
be observed especially in relation to numbers) ? By the exercise of this faculty,
if the image of a crow, for example, which is very familiar to the eye; be
set before the eye of the mind, as it were, it may be brought, by the taking
away of some features and the addition of others, to almost any image such
as never was seen by the eye. By this faculty also it comes to pass, that when
men's minds habitually ponder such things, figures of this kind force their
way as it were unbidden into their thoughts. Therefore it is possible for the
mind, by taking away, as has been said, some things from objects which the
senses have brought within its knowledge, and by adding some things, to produce
in the exercise of imagination that which, as a whole, was never within the
observation of any of the senses; but the parts of it had all been within such
observation, though found in a variety of different things: .e.g., when we
were boys, born and brought up m an inland district, we could already form
some idea of the sea, after we had seen water even in a small cup; but the
flavour of strawberries and of cherries could in no wise enter our conceptions
before we tasted these fruits in Italy. Hence it is also, that those who have
been born blind know not what to answer when they are asked about light and
colours. For those who have never perceived coloured objects by the senses
are not capable of having the images of such objects in the mind.
7. And let it not appear to you strange, that though the mind is present in
and intermingled with all those images which in the nature of things are figured
or can be pictured by us, these are not evolved by the mind from within itself
before it has received them through the. senses from without. For we also find
that,. along with anger, joy, and other such emotions, we produce changes in
our bodily aspect and complexion, before our thinking faculty even conceives
that we have the power of producing such images [or indications of our feeling].
These follow upon the experience of the emotion in those wonderful ways (especially
deserving your attentive consideration), which consist in the repeated action
and reaction of hidden numbers' in the soul, without the intervention of any
image of illusive material things. Whence I would have you understand --perceiving
as you do that so many movements of the mind go on wholly independently of
the images in question --that of all the movements of the mind by which it
may conceivably attain to the knowledge of bodies, every other is more likely
than the process of creating forms of sensible things by unaided thought, because
I do not think that it is capable of any such conceptions before it uses the
body and the senses.
Wherefore, my well beloved and most amiable brother, by the friendship which
unites us, and by our faith in the divine law itself,2 I would warn you never
to link yourself in friendship with those shadows of the realm of darkness,
and to break off without delay whatever friendship may have been begun between
you and them. That resistance to the sway of the bodily senses which it is
our most sacred duty to practise, is wholly abandoned if we treat with fondness
and flattery the blows and wounds which the senses inflict upon us.
LETTER VIII. (A.D. 389.)
TO AUGUSTIN NEBRIDIUS SENDS GREETING.
I. As I am in haste to come to the subject of my letter, I dispense with any
preface or introduction. When at any time it pleases higher (by which I mean
heavenly) powers to reveal anything to us by dreams in our sleep, how is this
done, my dear Augustin, or what is the method which they use? What, I say,
is their method, i.e. by what art or magic, by what agency or enchantments,
do they accomplish this ? Do they by their thoughts influence our minds, so
that we also have the same images presented in our thoughts ? Do they bring
before us, and exhibit as actually done in their own body or in their own imagination,
the things which we dream ? But if they actually do these things in their own
body, it follows 'that, in order to our seeing what they thus do, we must be
endowed with other bodily eyes beholding what passes within while we sleep.
If, however, they are not assisted by their bodies in producing the effects
in question, but frame such things in their own imaginative faculty, and thus
impress our imaginations, thereby giving visible form to what we dream; why
is it, I ask, that I cannot compel your imagination to reproduce those dreams
which I have myself first formed by my imagination? I have undoubtedly the
faculty of imagination, and it is capable of presenting to my own mind the
picture of whatever I please; and yet I do not thereby cause any I dream in
you, although I see that even our bodies have the power of originating dreams
in us. i For by means of the bond of sympathy uniting it to the soul, the body
compels us in strange ways to repeat or reproduce by imagination anything which
it has once experienced. Thus often in sleep, if we are thirsty, we dream that
we drink; and if we are hungry, we seem to ourselves to be eating; and many
other instances there are in which, by some mode of exchange, so to speak,
things are transferred through the imagination from the body to the soul.
Be not surprised at the want of elegance and subtlety with which these questions
are here stated to you; consider the obscurity in which the subject is involved,
and the inexperience of the writer; be it yours to do your utmost to supply
his deficiencies.
LETTER IX. (A.D. 389.)
TO NEBRIDIUS AUGUSTIN SENDS GREETING.
1. Although you know my mind well, you are perhaps not aware how much I long
to enjoy your society. This great blessing, however, God will some day bestow
on me. I have read your letter, so genuine in its utterances, in which you
complain of your being in solitude, and, as it were, forsaken by your friends,
in whose society you found the sweetest charm of life. But what else can I
suggest to you than that which I am persuaded is already your exercise ? Commune
with your own soul, and raise it up, as far as you are able, unto God. For
]n Him you hold us also by a firmer bond, not by means of bodily images, which
we must meanwhile be content to use in remembering each other, but by means
of that faculty of thought through which we realize the fact of our separation
from each other.
2. In considering your letters, in answering all of which I have certainly
had to answer questions of no small difficulty and importance, I was not a
little stunned by the one in which you ask me by what means certain thoughts
and dreams are put into our minds by higher powers or by superhuman agents.'
The question is a great one, and, as your own prudence must convince you, would
require, in order to its being satisfactorily answered, not a mere letter,
but a full oral discussion or a whole treatise. I shall try, however, knowing
as I do your talents, to throw out a few germs of thought which may shed light
on this question, in order that you may either complete the exhaustive treatment
of the subject by your own efforts, or at least not despair of the possibility
of this important matter being investigated with satisfactory results.
3. It is my opinion that every movement. of the mind affects in some degree
the body. We know that this is patent even to our senses, dull and sluggish
though they are, when the movements of the mind are somewhat vehement, as when
we are angry, or sad, or joyful. Whence we may conjecture that, in like manner,
when thought is busy, although no bodily effect of the mental act is discernible
by us, there may be some such effect discernible by beings of aerial or etherial
essence whose perceptive faculty is in the highest degree acute, --so much
so, that, in comparison with it, our faculties are scarcely worthy to be called
perceptive. Therefore these footprints of its motion, so to speak, which the
mind impresses on the body, may perchance not only remain, but remain as it
were with the force of a habit; and it may be that, when these are secretly
stirred and played upon, they bear thoughts and dreams into our minds, according
to the pleasure of the person moving or touching them: and this is done with
marvellous facility. For if, as is manifest, the attainments of our earth-born
and sluggish bodies in the department of exercise, e.g'. in the playing of
musical instruments, dancing on the tight-rope, etc:, are almost incredible,
it is by no means unreasonable to suppose that beings which act with the powers
of an aerial or etherial body upon our bodies, and are by the constitution
of their natures able to pass unhindered through these bodies, should be capable
of much greater quickness in moving whatever they wish, while we, though not
perceiving what they do, are nevertheless affected by the results of their
activity. We have a somewhat parallel instance in the fact that we do not perceive
how it is that superfluity of bile impels us to more frequent outbursts of
passionate feeling; and yet it does produce this effect, while this superfluity
of bile is itself an effect of our yielding to such passionate feelings.
4. If, however, you hesitate to accept this example .as a parallel one, when
it is thus cursorily stated by me, turn it over in your thoughts as fully as
you can. The mind, if it be continually obstructed by some difficulty in the
way of doing and accomplishing what it desires, is thereby made continually
angry. For anger, so far as I can judge of its nature, seems to me to be a
tumultuous eagerness to take out of the way .those things which restrict our
freedom of action. Hence it is that usually we vent our anger not only on men,
but on such a thing, for example, as the pen with which we write, bruising
or breaking it in our passion; and so does the gambler with his dice, the artist
with his pencil, and every man with the instrument which he may be using, if
he thinks that he is in some way thwarted by it. Now medical men themselves
tell us that by these frequent fits of anger bile is increased. But, on the
other hand, when the bile is increased, we are easily, and almost without any
provocation whatever, made angry. Thus the effect which the mind has by its
movement produced upon the body, is capable in its turn of moving the mind
again.
5. These things might be treated at very great length, and our knowledge of
the subject might be brought to greater certainty and fulness by a large induction
from relevant facts. But take along with this letter the one which I sent you
lately concerning images and memory,2 and study it somewhat more carefully;
for it was manifest to me, from your reply, that it had not been fully understood.
When, to the statements now before you, you add the portion of that letter
in which I spoke of a certain natural faculty whereby the mind does in thought
add to or take from any object as it pleases, you will see that it is possible
for us both in dreams and in waking thoughts to conceive the images of bodily
forms which we have never seen.
LETTER X. (A.D. 389.)
TO NEBRIDIUS AUGUSTIN SENDS GREETING,
1. No question of yours ever kept me so disturbed while reflecting upon it,
as the remark which I read in your last letter, in which you chide me for being
indifferent as to making arrangements by which it may be possible for us to
live together. A grave charge, and one which, were it not unfounded, would
be most perilous. But since satisfactory masons seem to prove that we can live
as we would wish to do better here than at Carthage, or even in the country,
I am wholly at a loss, my dear Nebridius, what to do with you. Shall such a
conveyance as may best suit your state of health be sent from us to you ? Our
friend Lucinianus informs me that you can be carried without injury in a palanquin.
But I consider, on the other hand, how your mother, who could not bear your
absence from her when you were in health, will be much less able to bear it
when you are ill. Shall I myself then come to you ? This I cannot do, for there
are some here who cannot accompany me, and whom I would think it a crime for
me to leave. For you already can pass your time agreeably when left to the
resources of our own mind i but in their case the object of present efforts
is that they may attain to this. Shall I go and come frequently, and so be
now with you, now with them ? But this is neither to live together, nor to
live as we would wish to do. For the journey is not a short one, but so great
at least that the attempt to perform it frequently would prevent our gaining
the wished-for leisure. To this is added the bodily weakness through which,
as you know, I cannot accomplish what I wish, unless I cease wholly to wish
what is beyond my strength.
2. To
occupy one's thoughts throughout life with journeyings which you cannot perform
tranquilly and
easily, is
not the part of a man whose thoughts are
engaged with that last journey which is called death, and which alone, as you
understand, really deserves serious consideration. God has indeed granted to
some few men whom He has ordained to bear rule over churches, the capacity
of not only awaiting calmly, but even desiring eagerly, that last journey,
while at the same time they can meet without disquietude the toils of those
other journeyings; but I do not believe that either to those who are urged
to accept such duties through desire for worldly honour, or to those who, although
occupying a private station, covet a busy life, so great a boon is given as
that amid bustle and agitating meetings, and journeyings hither and thither,
they should acquire that familiarity with death which we seek: for both of
these classes had it in their power to seek edification1 in retirement. Or
if this be not true, I am, I shall not say the most foolish of all men, but
at least the most indolent, since I find it impossible, without the aid of
such an interval of relief from care and toil, to taste and relish that only
real good. Believe me, there is need of much withdrawal of oneself from the
tumult of the things which are passing away, in order that there may be formed
in man, not through insensibility, not through presumption, not through vainglory,
not through superstitious blindness, the ability to say, "I fear nought." By
this means also is attained that enduring joy with which no pleasurable excitement
found elsewhere is in any degree to be compared.
3. But if such a life does not fall to the lot of man, how is it that calmness
of spirit is our occasional experience ? Wherefore is this experience more
frequent, in proportion to the devotion with which any one in his inmost soul
worships God ? Why does this tranquillity for the most part abide with one
in the business of life, when he goes forth to its duties from that sanctuary
? Why are there times in which, speaking, we do not fear death, and, silent,
even desire it ? I say to you -- for I would not say it to every one-to you
whose visits to the upper world I know well, Will you, who have often felt
how sweetly the soul lives when it dies to all mere bodily affections, deny
that it is possible for the whole life of man to become at length so exempt
from fear, that he may be justly called wise ? Or will you venture to affirm
that this state of mind, on which reason leans has ever been your lot, except
when you were shut up to commune with your own heart? Since these things are
so, you see that it remains only for you to share with me the labour of devising
how we may arrange to live together. You know much better than I do what is
to be done in regard to your mother, whom your brother Victor, of course, does
not leave alone. I will write no more, lest I turn your mind away from considering
this proposal.
LETTER XI. (A.D. 389.)
TO NEBRIDIUS AUGUSTIN SENDS GREETING.
1. When the question, which has long been brought before me by you with something
even of friendly chiding, as to the way in which we might live together, was
seriously disturbing my mind, and I had resolved to write to you, and to beg
an answer from you bearing exclusively on this subject, and to employ my pen
on no other theme pertaining to our studies, in order that the discussion of
this matter between us might be brought to an end, the very short and indisputable
conclusion stated in your letter lately received at once delivered me from
all further solicitude; your statement being to the effect that on this matter
there ought to be no further deliberation, because as soon as it is in my power
to come to you, or in your power to come to me, we shall feel alike constrained
to improve the opportunity. My mind being thus, as I have said, at rest, I
looked over all your letters, that I. might see what yet remained unanswered.
In these I have found so many questions, that even if they were easily solved,
they would by their mere number more than exhaust the time and talents of any
man. But they are so difficult, that if the answering of even one of them were
laid upon me, I would not hesitate to confess myself heavily burdened. The
design of this introductory statement is to make you desist for a little from
asking new questions until I am free from debt, and that you confine yourself
in your answer to the statement of your opinion of my replies. At the same
time, I know that it is to my own loss that I postpone for even a little while
the participation of your divine thoughts.
2. Hear, therefore, the view which I hold concerning the mystery of the Incarnation
which the religion wherein we have been instructed commends to our faith and
knowledge as having been accomplished in order to our salvation; which question
I have chosen to discuss in preference to all the rest, although it is not
the most easily answered. For those questions which are proposed by you concerning
this world do not appear to me to have a sufficiently direct reference to the
obtaining of a happy life; and whatever pleasure they yield when investigated,
there is reason to fear lest they take up time which ought to be devoted to
better things. With regard, then, to the subject which I have at this time
undertaken, first of all I am surprised that you were perplexed by the question
why not the! Father, but the Son, is said to have become incarnate, and yet
were not also perplexed by the same question in regard to the Holy Spirit.
For the union of Persons in the Trinity is in the Catholic faith set forth
and believed, and by a few holy and blessed ones understood, to be so inseparable,
that whatever is done by the Trinity' must be regarded as being done by the
Father, and by the Son, and by the Holy Spirit together;: and that nothing
is done by the Father which is, not also done by the Son and by the Holy Spirit;
l and nothing done by the Holy Spirit which is not also done by the Father
and by the Son; and nothing done by the Son which is not also done , by the
Father and by the Holy Spirit. From which it seems to follow as a consequence,
that the whole Trinity assumed human nature; for if the Son did so, but the
Father and the Spirit did not, there is something in which they act separately.'
Why, then, in our mysteries and sacred symbols, is the Incarnation ascribed
only to the / Son ? This is a very great question, So difficult, and on a subject
so vast, that it is impossible either to give a sufficiently clear statement,
or to support it by satisfactory proofs. I venture, however, since I am writing
to you, to indicate rather than explain what my sentiments are, in order that
you, from your talents and our intimacy, through which you thoroughly know
me, may for yourself fill up the outline.
3. There is no nature, Nebridius--and, indeed, there is no substance -- which
does not contain in itself and exhibit these three things: first, that it is;
next, that it is this or that; and third, that as far as possible it remains
as it is. The first of these three presents the original cause of nature from
which all things exist; the second presents the form 2 according to which all
things are fashioned and formed in a particular way; the third presents a certain
permanence, so to speak, in which all things are. Now, if it be possible that
a thing can be, and yet not be this or that, and not remain in its own generic
form; or that a thing can be this or that, and yet not be, and not remain in
its own generic form, so far as it is possible for it to do so; or that a thing
can remain in its own generic form according to the force belonging to it,
and yet not be, and not be this or that,- then it is also possible that in
that Trinity one Person can do something in which the others have no part.
But if you see that whatever is must forthwith be this or that, and must remain
so far as possible in its own generic form, you see also that these Three do
nothing in which all have not a part. I see that as yet I have only treated
a portion of this question, which makes its solution difficult. But I wished
to open up briefly to you--if, indeed, I have succeeded in this- how great
in the system of Catholic truth is the doctrine of the inseparability of the
Persons of the Trinity, and how difficult to be understood.
4. Hear now how that which disquiets your mind may disquiet it no more. The
mode of existence (Species--the second of the three above named) which is properly
ascribed to the Son, has to do with training, and with a certain art, if I
may use that word in regard to such things, and with the exercise of intellect,
by which the mind itself is moulded in its thoughts upon things. Therefore,
since by that assumption of human nature the work accomplished was the effective
presentation to us of a certain training in the right way of living, and exemplification
of that which is commanded, under the majesty and perspicuousness of certain
sentences, it is not without reason that all this is ascribed to the Son. For
in many things which I leave your own reflection and prudence to suggest, although
the constituent elements be many, some one nevertheless stands out above the
rest, and therefore not unreasonably claims a right of possession, as it were,
of the whole for itself: as, e.g., in the. three kinds of questions above mentioned,'
although the question raised be whether a thing is or not, this involves necessarily
also both what it is (this or that), for of course it cannot be at all unless
it be something, and whether it ought to be approved of or disapproved of,
for whatever is is a fit subject for some opinion as to its quality; in like
manner, when the question raised is what a thing is, this necessarily involves
both that it is, and that its quality may be tried by some standard; and in
the same way, when the question raised is what is the quality of a thing, this
necessarily involves that that thing is, and is something, since all things
are inseparably joined to themselves; -nevertheless, the question in each of
the above cases takes its name not from all the three, but from the special
point towards which the inquirer directed his attention. Now there is a certain
training necessary for men, by which they might be instructed and formed after
some model. We cannot say, however, regarding that which is accomplished in
men by this training, either that it does not exist, or that it is not a thing
to be desired [i.e. we cannot say what it is, without involving an affirmation
both of its existence and of its quality; but we seek first to know what it
is, for in knowing this we know that by which we may infer that it is something,
and in which we may remain. Therefore the first thing necessary was, that a
certain rule and pattern of training be plainly exhibited; and this was done
by the divinely appointed method of the Incarnation, which is properly to be
ascribed to the Son, in order that from it should follow both our knowledge,
through the Son, of the Father Himself, i.e. of the one first principle whence
all things have their being, and a certain inward and ineffable charm and sweetness
of remaining in that knowledge, and of despising all mortal things,- a gift
and work which is properly ascribed to the Holy Spirit. Wherefore, although
in all things the Divine Persons act perfectly in common, and without possibility
of separation, nevertheless their operations behoved to be exhibited in such
a way as to be distinguished from each other, on account of the weakness which
is in us, who have fallen from unity into variety. For no one ever succeeds
in raising another to the height on which he himself stands, unless he stoop
somewhat towards the level which that other occupies.
You have here a letter which may not indeed put an end to your disquietude
in regard to this doctrine, but which may set your own thoughts to work upon
a kind of solid foundation; so that, with the talents which I well know you
to possess, you may follow, and, by the piety in which especially we must be
stedfast, may apprehend that which still remains to be discovered.
LETTER XII. (A.D. 389.)
Omitted, as only a fragment of the text of the letter is preserved.
LETTER XIII. (A.D. 389.)
TO NEBRIDIUS AUGUSTIN SENDS GREETING.
1. I do not feel pleasure in writing of the subjects which I was wont to discuss;
I am not at liberty to write of new themes. I see that the one would not suit
you, and that for the other I have no leisure. For, since I left you, neither
opportunity nor leisure has been given me for taking up and revolving the things
which we are accustomed to investigate together. The winter nights are indeed
too long, and they are not entirely spent in sleep by me; but when I have leisure,
other subjects [than those which we used to discuss] present themselves as
having a prior claim on my consideration? What, then, am I to do ? Am I to
be to you as one dumb, who cannot speak, or as one silent, who will not speak
? Neither of these things is desired, either by you or by me. Come, then, and
bear what the end of the night succeeded in eliciting from me during the time
in which it was devoted to following out the subject of this letter.
2. You cannot but remember that a question often agitated between .us, and
which kept us agitated, breathless, and excited, was one concerning a body
or kind of body, which belongs perpetually to the soul, and which, as you recollect,
is called by some its vehicle. It is manifest that this thing, if it moves
from place to place, is not cognisable by the understanding. But whatever is
not cognisable by the understanding cannot be understood. It is not, however,
utterly impossible to form an opinion approximating to the truth concerning
a thing which is outside the province of the intellect, if it lies within the
province of the senses. But when a thing is beyond the province of the intellect
and of the senses, the speculations to which it gives rise are too baseless
and trifling; and the thing of which we treat now is of this nature, if indeed
it exists. Why, then, I ask, do we not finally dismiss this unimportant question,
and with prayer to God raise ourselves to the supreme serenity of the Highest
existing nature ?
3. Perhaps
you may here reply: "Although
bodies cannot be perceived by the understanding, we can perceive with the
understanding many things concerning
material objects; e.g. we know that matter exists. For who will deny this,
or affirm that in this we have to do with the probable rather than the true
? Thus, though matter itself lies among things probable, it is a most indisputable
truth that something like it exists in nature. Matter itself is therefore pronounced
to be an object cognisable by the senses; but the assertion of its existence
is pronounced to be a truth cognisable by the intellect, for it cannot be perceived
otherwise. And so this unknown body, about which we inquire, upon which the
soul depends for its power to move from place to place, may possibly be cognisable
by senses more powerful than we possess, though not by ours; and at all events,
the question whether it exists is one which may be solved by our understandings."
4. If you intend to say this, let me remind you that the mental act we call
understanding is done by us in two ways: either by the mind and reason within
itself, as when we understand that the intellect itself exists; or by occasion
of suggestion from the senses, as in the case above mentioned, when we understand
that matter exists. In the first of these two kinds of acts we understand through
ourselves, i.e. by asking instruction of God concerning that which is within
us; but in the second we understand by asking instruction of God regarding
that of which intimation is given to us by the body and the senses. If these
things be found true, no one can by his understanding discover whether that
body of which you speak exists or not, but the person to whom his senses have
given some intimation concerning it. If there be any living creature to which
the senses give such intimation, since we at least see plainly that we are
not among the number, I regard the conclusion l established which I began to
state a little ago, I that the question [about the vehicle of the soul] is
one which does not concern us. I wish you would consider this over and over
again, and take care to let me know the product of your consideration.
LETTER XIV. (A.D. 389.)
TO NEBRIDIUS AUGUSTIN SENDS GREETING.
1. I have preferred to reply to your last letter, not because I undervalued
your earlier questions, or enjoyed them less, but because in answering you
I undertake a greater task than you think. For although you enjoined me to
send you a superlatively long' letter, I have not so much leisure as you imagine,
and as you know I have always wished to have, and do still wish. Ask not why
it is so: for I could more easily enumerate the things by which I am hindered,
than explain why I am hindered by them.
2. You ask why it is that you and I, though separate individuals, do many
things which are the same, but the sun does not the same as the other heavenly
bodies. Of this thing I must attempt to explain the cause. Now, if you and
I do the same things, the sun also does many things which the other heavenly
bodies do: if in some things it does not the same as the others, this is equally
true of you and me. I walk, and you walk; it is moved, and they are moved:
I keep awake, and you keep awake; it shines, and they shine: I discuss, and
you discuss; it goes its round, and they go their rounds. And yet there is
no fitness of comparison between mental acts and things visible. If, however,
as is reasonable, you compare mind with mind, the heavenly bodies, if they
have any mind, must be regarded as even more uniform than men in their thoughts
or contemplations, or whatever term may more conveniently express such activity
in them. Moreover, as to the movements of the body, you will find, if you reflect
on this with your wonted attention, that it is impossible for precisely the
same thing to be done by two persons. When we walk together, do you think that
we both necessarily do the same thing? Far be such thought from one of your
wisdom! For the one of us who walks on the' side towards the north, must either,
in taking the same step as the other, get in advance of him, or walk more slowly
than he does. Neither of these things is perceptible by the senses; but you,
if I am not mistaken, look to what we know by the understanding rather than
to what we learn by the senses. If, however, we move from the pole towards
the south, joined and clinging to each other as closely as possible, and treading
on a sheet of marble or even ivory smooth and level, a perfect identity is
as unattainable in our motions as in the throbbings of our pulses, or in our
figures and faces. Put us aside, and place in our stead the sons of Glaucus,
and you gain nothing by this substitution: for even in these twins so perfectly
resembling each other, the necessity for the motions of each being peculiarly
his own, is as great as the necessity for their birth as separate individuals.
3. You
will perhaps say: "The difference in this case is one which only
reason can discover; but the difference between the sun and the other heavenly
bodies is to the senses also patent." If you insist upon my looking to
their difference in magnitude, you know how many things may be said as to the
distances by which they are removed from us, and into how great uncertainty
that which you speak of as obvious may thus be brought back. I may, however,
concede that the actual size corresponds with the apparent size of the heavenly
bodies, for I myself believe this; and I ask you to show me any one whose senses
were incapable of remarking the prodigious stature of Naevius, exceeding by
a foot that of the tallest man.1 By the way, I think you have been just too
eager to discover some man to match him; and when you did not succeed in the
search, have resolved to make me stretch out my letter so as to rival his dimensions?
If therefore even on earth such variety in size may be seen, I think that it
need not surprise us to find the like in the heavens. If, however, the thing
which moves your surprise is that the light of no other heavenly body than
the sun fills the day, who, I ask you, has ever been manifested to men so great
as that Man whom God took into union with Himself, in another way entirely
than He has taken all other holy and wise men who ever lived ? for if you compare
Him with other men who were wise, He is separated from them by superiority
greater far than that which the sun has above the other heavenly bodies. This
comparison let me charge you by all means attentively to study; for it is not
impossible that to your singularly gifted mind I may have suggested, by this
cursory remark, the solution of a question which you once proposed to me concerning
the humanity of Christ.
4. You also ask me whether that highest Truth and highest Wisdom and Form
(or Archetype) of things, by whom all things were made, and whom our creeds
confess to be the only-begotten Son of God, contains the idea 3 of mankind
in general, or also of each individual of our race. A great question. My opinion
is, that in the creation of man there was in Him the idea only of man generally,
and not of you or me as individuals; but that in the cycle of time the idea
of each individual, with all the varieties distinguishing men from each other,
lives in that pure Truth. This I grant is very obscure; yet I know not by what
kind of illustration light may be shed upon it, unless perhaps we betake ourselves
to those sciences which lie wholly within our minds. In geometry, the idea
of an angle is one thing, the idea of a square is another. As often, therefore,
as I please to describe an angle, the idea of the angle, and that alone, is
present to my mind; but I can never describe a square unless I fix my attention
upon the idea of four angles at the same time. In like manner, every man, considered
as an individual man, has been made according to one idea proper to himself;
but in the making of a nation, although the idea according to which it is made
be also one, it is the idea not of one, but of many men collectively. If, therefore,
Nebridius is a part of this universe, as he is, and the whole universe is made
up of parts, the God who made the universe could not but have in His plan the
idea of all the parts. Wherefore, since there is in this idea of a very great
number of men, it does not belong to man himself as such; although, on the
other hand, all the individuals are in wonderful ways reduced !to one. But
you will consider this at your :convenience. I beg you meanwhile to be content
with what I have written, although I have already outdone Naevius himself.
LETTER XV. (A.D. 390.)
TO ROMANIANUS AUGUSTIN SENDS GREETING.
1. This letter indicates a scarcity of paper? but not so as to testify that
parchment is plentiful here. My ivory tablets I used in the letter which I
sent to your uncle. You will more readily excuse this scrap of parchment, because
what I wrote to him could not be delayed, and I thought that not to write to
you for want of better material would be most absurd. But if any tablets of
mine are with you, I request you to send them to meet a case of this kind.
I have written something, as the Lord has deigned to enable me, concerning
the Catholic religion, which before my coming I wish to send to you, if my
paper does not fail me in the meantime. For you will receive with indulgence
any kind of writing from the office of the brethren who are with me. As to
the manuscripts of which you speak, I have entirely forgotten them, except
the books de Oratore; but I could not have written anything better than that
you should take such of them as you please, and I am still of the same mind;
for at this distance I know not what else I can do in the matter. It gave me
very great pleasure that in your last letter you desired to make me a sharer
of l your joy at home; but
"Wouldst
thou have me forget how soon the deep,
So tranquil
now, may wear another face, And rouse these slumbering waves ?"
Yet I
know you would not have me forget this, nor are you yourself unmindful of
it. Wherefore, if
some leisure
is granted you for more profound meditation,
improve this divine blessing. For when these things fall to our lot, we should
not only congratulate ourselves, but show our gratitude to those to whom we
owe them; for if in the stewardship of temporal blessings we act in a manner
that is just and kind, and with the moderation and sobriety of spirit which
befits the transient nature of these possessions, -- if they are held by us
without laying hold on us, are multiplied without entangling us, and serve
us without bringing us into bondage,such conduct entitles us to the recompense
of eternal blessings. For by Him who is the Truth it was said: "If ye
have not been faithful in that which is another man's, who will give you[ that.
which is your own?" Let us therefore disengage ourselves from care about
the passing things of time; let us seek the blessings that are imperishable
and sure: let us soar above our worldly possessions. The bee does not the less
need its wings when it has gathered an abundant store; for if it sink in the
honey it dies. He has made, we worship under many names, as we are all ignorant
of His true name, the name God 2 being common to all kinds of religious belief.
Thus it comes, that while in diverse supplications we approach separately,
as it were, certain parts of the Divine Being, we are seen in reality to be
the worshippers of Him in whom all these parts are one.
2. Such
is the greatness of your delusion in i another matter, that I cannot conceal
the impatience
with which
I regard it. For who can bear to find Mygdo
honoured above that Jupiter who hurls the thunderbolt; or (Sanae) above Juno,
Minerva, Venus, and Vesta; or the arch-martyr Namphanio (oh horror !) above
all the immortal gods together? Among the immortals, Lucitas also is looked
up to with no less religious reverence, and others in an endless list (having
names abhorred both by gods and by men), who, when they met the ignominious
end which their character and conduct had deserved, put the crowning act upon
their criminal career by affecting to die nobly in a good cause, though conscious
of the infamous deeds for which they were condemned. The tombs of these men
(it is a folly almost beneath our notice) are visited by crowds of simpletons,
who forsake our temples and despise the memory of their ancestors, so that
the !prediction of the indignant bard is notably fulfilled: "Rome shall,
in the temples of the gods, swear by the shades of men." a To me it almost
seems at this time as if a second campaign of Actium had begun, in which Egyptian
monsters, doomed soon to perish, dare to brandish their weapons against the
gods of the Romans.
3. But, O man of great wisdom, I beseech you, lay aside and reject for a little
while the 'vigour of your eloquence, which has made you everywhere renowned;
lay down also the arguments of Chrysippus, which you are accustomed to use
in debate; leave for a brief season your logic, which aims in the forthputting
of its energies to leave nothing certain to any one; and show me plainly and
actually who is that God whom you Christians claim as belonging specially to
you, and pretend to see present among you in secret places. For it is in open
day, before the eyes and ears of all men, that we worship our gods with pious
supplications, and propitiate them by acceptable sacrifices; and we take pains
that these things be seen and approved by all.
4. Being,
however, infirm and old, I withdraw myself from further prosecution of this
contest, and
willingly
consent to the opinion of the rhetorician of
Mantua, "Each one is drawn by that which pleases himself best." 4
LETTER XVI. (A.D. 390.)
FROM MAXIMUS OF MADAURA TO AUGUSTIN.
I. Desiring to be frequently made glad by communications from you, and by
the stimulus of your reasoning with which in a most pleasant' way, and without
violation of good feeling, you recently attacked me, I have not forborne from
replying to you in the same spirit, lest you should: call my silence an acknowledgment
of being in the wrong. But I beg you to give these sentences an indulgent kindly
hearing, if you judge them to give evidence of the feebleness of old age.
Grecian mythology tells us, but without sufficient warrant for our believing
the statement, 2 that Mount Olympus is the dwelling-place of the, gods. But
we actually see the market-place of our town occupied by a crowd of beneficent.
deities; and we approve of this. Who could ever be so frantic and infatuated
as to deny that there is one supreme God, without beginning, without natural
offspring, who. is, as it were, the great and mighty Father of all? The powers
of this Deity, diffused throughout the universe which...
After this, O excellent man, who hast turned aside from my faith, I have no
doubt that this letter will be stolen by some thief, and destroyed by fire
or otherwise. Should this happen, the paper will be lost, but not my letter,
of which I will always retain a copy, accessible to all religious persons.
May you be preserved by the gods, through whom we all, who are mortals on the
surface of this earth, with apparent discord but real harmony, revere and worship
Him who is the common Father of the gods and of all mortals.
LETTER XVII. (A.D. 390.)
TO MAXIMUS OF MADAURA.
1. Are we engaged in serious debate with each other, or is it your desire
that we merely amuse ourselves? For, from the language of your letter, I am
at a loss to know whether it is due to the weakness of your cause, or through
the courteousness of your manners, that you have preferred to show yourself
more witty than weighty in argument. For, in the first place, a comparison
was drawn by you between Mount Olympus and your market-place, the reason for
which I cannot divine, unless it was in order to remind me that on the said
mountain Jupiter pitched his camp when he was at war with his father, as we
are taught by history, which your religionists call sacred; and that in the
said market-place Mars is represented in two images, the one unarmed, the other
armed, and that a statue of a man placed over against these restrains with
three extended fingers the fury of their demonship from the injuries which
he would willingly inflict on the citizens. Could I then ever believe that
by mentioning that market-place you intended to revive my recollection of such
divinities, unless you wished that we should pursue the discussion in a jocular
spirit rather than in earnest? But in regard to the sentence in which you said
that such gods as these are members, so to speak, of the one great God, I admonish
you by all means, since you vouchsafe such an opinion, to abstain very carefully
from profane jestings of this kind. For if you speak of the One God, concerning
whom learned and unlearned are, as the ancients have said, agreed, do you affirm
that those whose savage fury -- or, if you prefer it, whose power- the image
of a dead man keeps in check are members of Him ? I might say more on this
point, and your own judgment may show you how wide a door for the refutation
of your views is here thrown open. But I restrain myself, lest I should be
thought by you to act more as a rhetorician than as one earnestly defending
truth.
2. As
to your collecting of certain Carthaginian names of deceased persons, by
which you think reproach
may be
cast, in what seems to you a witty manner,
against our religion, I do not know whether I ought to answer this taunt, or
to pass it by in silence. For if to your good sense these things appear as
trifling as they really are, I have not time to spare for such pleasantry.
If, however, they seem to you important, I am surprised that it did not occur
to you, who are apt to be disturbed by absurdly-sounding names, that your religionists
have among their priests Eucaddires, and among their deities, Abaddires. I
do not suppose that these were absent from your mind when you were writing,
but that, with your courtesy and genial humour, you wished for the unbending
of our minds, to recall to our recollection what ludicrous things are in your
superstition. For surely, considering that you are an African, and that we
are both settled in Africa, you could not have so forgotten yourself when writing
to Africans as to think that Punic names were a fit theme for censure. For
if we interpret the signification of these words, what else does Namphanio
mean than "man of the good foot," i.e. whose coming brings with it
some good fortune, as we are wont to say of one whose coming to us has been
followed by some prosperous event, that he came with a lucky foot ? And if
the Punic language is rejected by you, you virtually deny what has been admitted
by most learned men, that many things have been wisely preserved from oblivion
in books written in the Punic tongue. Nay, you ought even to be ashamed of
having been born in the country in which the cradle of this language is still
warm, i.e. in which this language was originally, and until very recently,
the language of the people. If, however, it is not reasonable to take offence
at the mere sound of names, an{t you admit that I have given correctly the
meaning of the one in question, you have reason for being dissatisfied with
your friend Virgil, who gives to your god Hercules an invitation to the sacred
rites celebrated by Evander in his honour, in these terms, "Come to us,
and to these rites in thine honour, with auspicious foot." z He wishes
him to come "with auspicious foot;" that is to say, he wishes Hercules
to come as a Namphanio, the name about which you are pleased to make much mirth
at our expense. But if you have a penchant for ridicule, you have among yourselves
ample material for witticisms --the god Stercutius, the goddess Cloacina, the
Bald Venus, the gods Fear and Pallor, and the goddess Fever, and others of
the same kind without number, to whom the ancient Roman idolaters erected temples,
and judged it right to offer worship; which if you neglect, you are neglecting
Roman gods, thereby making it manifest that you are not thoroughly versed in
the sacred rites of Rome; and yet you despise and pour contempt on Punic names,
as if you were a devotee at the altars of Roman deities.
3. In truth however, I believe that perhaps you do not value these sacred
rites any more than we do, but only take from them some unaccountable pleasure
in your time of passing through this world: for you have no hesitation about
taking refuge under Virgil's wing, and de-fending yourself with a line of his:
"Each
one is drawn by that which pleases himself best."
If, then,
the authority of Maro pleases you, as you indicate that it does, you will
be pleased with.
such
lines as these: "First Saturn came from
lofty Olympus, fleeing before the arms of Jupiter, an exile bereft of his realms," 2
... and other such statements, by which he aims at making it understood that
Saturn and your other gods like him were men. For he had read much history,
confirmed by ancient authority, which Cicero also had read, who makes the same
statement in his l dialogues, in terms more explicit than we would venture
to insist upon, and labours to bring it to the knowledge of men so far as the
times in which he lived permitted.
4. As to your statement, that your religious j services are to be preferred
to ours because you ! worship the gods in public, but we use more retired places
of meeting, let me first ask you how you could have forgotten your Bacchus,
whom{ you consider 'it right to exhibit only to the eyes of the few who are
initiated. You, however, think that, in making mention of the public! celebration
of your sacred rites, you intended. only to make sure that we would place before
our eyes the spectacle presented by your magistrates and the chief men of the
city when intoxicated and raging along your street;; in which solemnity, if
you are possessed by a god, you surely see of what nature he must be who deprives
men of their reason. If, however, this madness is only feigned, what say you
to this keeping of' things hidden in a service which you boast of as public,
or what good purpose is served by so base an imposition ? Moreover, why do
you not foretell future events in your songs, if you are endowed with the prophetic
gift? or why do you rob the bystanders, if you are in your sound mind ?
5. Since, then, you have recalled to our remembrance by your letter these
and other things which I think it better to pass over meanwhile, why may not
we make sport of your gods, which, as every one who knows your mind, and has
read your letters, is well aware, are made ]sport of abundantly by yourself?
Therefore, if {you wish us to discuss these subjects in a way becoming your
years and wisdom, and, in fact, as may be justly required of us, in connection
with our purpose, by our dearest friends, seek some topic worthy of being debated
between us; and be careful to say on behalf of ),our gods such things as may
prevent us from supposing that you are intentionally betraying your own cause,
when we find you rather bringing to our remembrance things which may be said
against them' than alleging anything in their defence. In conclusion, however,
lest this should bc unknown to you, and you might thus be brought unwittingly
into jestings which are profane, let me assure you that by the Christian Catholics
(by whom a church has been set up in your own town also) no deceased person
is worshipped, and that nothing, in short, which has been made and fashioned
by God is worshipped n as a divine power. This worship is rendered by i them
only to God Himself, who framed and 'fashioned all things.3 These things shall
be more fully treated of, with the help of the one true God, whenever I learn
that you are disposed to discuss them seriously.
LETTER XVIII. (A.D. 390.)
TO COELESTINUS AUGUSTIN SENDS GREETING.
1. Oh how I wish that I could continually say one thing to you ! It is this:
Let us shake off ,he burden of unprofitable cares, and bear only those which
are useful. For I do not know whether anything like complete exemption from
care is to be hoped for in this world. I wrote to you, but have received no
reply. I sent you as many of my books against the Manichaeans as I could send
in a finished and revised condition, and as yet nothing has been communicated
to me as to the impression they have made on your judgment and feelings. It
is now a fitting opportunity for me to ask them back, and for you to return
them. I beg you therefore not to lose time in sending them, along with a letter
from yourself, by which I eagerly long to know what you are doing with them,
or with what further help you think that you require still to be furnished
in order to assail that error with success.
2. As I know you well, I ask you to accept and ponder the following brief
sentences on a great theme. There is a nature which is susceptible of change
with respect to both place and time, namely, the corporeal. There is another
nature which is in no way susceptible of change with respect to place, but
only with respect to time, namely, the spiritual. And there is a third Nature
which can be changed neither in respect to place nor in respect to time: that
is, God. Those natures of which I have said that they are mutable in some respect
are called creatures; the Nature which is immutable is called Creator. Seeing,
however, that we affirm the existence of anything only in so far as it continues
and is one (in consequence of which, unity is the condition essential to beauty
in every form), you cannot fail to distinguish, in this classification of natures,
which exists in the highest possible manner; and which occupies the lowest
place, yet is within the range of existence; and which occupies the middle
place, greater than the lowest, but coming short of the highest. That highest
is essential blessedness; the lowest, that which cannot be either blessed or
wretched; and the intermediate nature lives in wretchedness when it stoops
towards..that which is lowest, and in blessedness when it {urns towards that
which is highest. He who believes in Christ does not sink his affections in
that which is lowest, is not proudly self-sufficient in that which is intermediate,
and thus he is qualified for union and fellowship with that which is highest;
and this is the sum of the active life to which we are commanded, admonished,
and by holy zeal impelled to aspire.
LETTER XIX. (A.D. 390.)
TO GAIUS AUGUSTIN SENDS GREETING.
1. Words cannot express the pleasure with which the recollection of you filled
my heart after I parted with you, and has often filled my heart since then.
For I remember that, notwithstanding the amazing ardour which pervaded your
inquiries after truth, the bounds of proper moderation in debate were never
transgressed by you. I shall not easily find any one who is more eager in putting
questions, and at the same time more patient in hearing answers, than you approved
yourself. Gladly therefore would I spend much time in converse with you; for
the time thus spent, however much it might be, would not seem long. But what
avails it to discuss the hindrances on account of which it is difficult for
us to enjoy such converse ? Enough that it is exceedingly difficult. Perhaps
at some future period it may be made very easy; may God grant this! Meanwhile
it is otherwise. I have. given to the brother by whom I have sent this letter
the charge of submitting all my writings to your eminent wisdom and charity,
that they may be read by you. For nothing written by me will find in you a
reluctant reader; for I know the goodwill which you cherish towards me. Let
me say, however, that if, on reading these things, you approve of them, and
perceive them to be true, you must not consider them to be mine otherwise than
as given to me; and you are at liberty to turn to that same source whence proceeds
also the power given you to appreciate their truth. For no one discerns the
truth of that which he reads from anything which is in the mere manuscript,
or in the writer, but rather by something within himself, if the light of truth,
shining with a clearness beyond what is men's common lot, and very far removed
from the darkening influence of the body, has penetrated his own mind. If,
however, you discover some things which are false and deserve to be rejected,
I would have you know that these things have fallen as dew from the mists of
human frailty, and these you are to reckon as truly mine. I would exhort you
to persevere in seeking the truth, were it not that I seem to see the mouth
of your heart already opened wide to drink it in. I would also exhort you to
cling with manly tenacity to the truth which you have learned, were it not
that you already manifest in the clearest manner that you possess strength
of mind and fixedness of purpose. For all that !lives within you has, in the
short time of our fellowship, revealed itself to me, almost as if the bodily
veil had been rent asunder. And surely the merciful providence of our God can
in no wise permit a man so good and so remarkably gifted as you are to be an
alien from the flock of Christ.
LETTER XX. (A.D. 390.)
TO ANTONINUS AUGUSTIN SENDS GREETING.
1. As letters are due to you by two of us, a part of our debt is repaid with
very abundant usury when you see one of the two in person; and since by his
voice you, as it were, hear my own, I might have refrained from writing, had
I .not been called to do it by the urgent request of the very person whose
journey to you seemed to me to make this unnecessary. Accordingly I now hold
converse with you even more satisfactorily than if I were personally with you,
because you both read my letter, and you listen to the words of one in whose
heart you know that I dwell. I have with great joy studied and pondered the
letter sent by your Holiness, because it exhibits both your Christian spirit
unsullied by the guile of an evil age, and your heart full of kindly feeling
towards myself.
2. I congratulate you, and I give thanks to our God and Lord, because of the
hope and faith and love which are in you; and I thank you, in Him, for thinking
so well of me as to believe me to be a faithful servant of God, and for the
love which with guileless heart you cherish towards that which you commend
in me; although, indeed, there is occasion rather for congratulation than for
thanks in acknowledging your goodwill in this thing. For it is profitable for:
yourself that you should love for its own sake that goodness which he of course
loves who loves l another because he believes him to be good, whether that
other be or be not what he is supposed to be. One error only is to be carefully
avoided in this matter, that we do not think otherwise than truth demands,
not of the individual, but of that which is true goodness in man. But, my brother
well beloved, seeing that you are not in any degree mistaken either in believing
or in knowing that the great good for men is to serve God cheerfully and purely,
when you love any man because you believe him to share this good, you reap
the reward, even though the man be not what you suppose him to be. Wherefore
it is fitting that you should on this account be congratulated; but the person
whom you love is to be congratulated, not because of his being for that reason
loved, but! because of his being truly (if it is the case) such an one as the
person who for this reason loves him esteems him to be. As to our real l character,
therefore, and as to the progress we may have made in the divine life, this
is seen by Him whose judgment, both as to that which is good in man, and as
to each man's personal character, cannot err. For your obtaining the! reward
of blessedness so far as this matter is concerned, it is sufficient that you
embrace! me with your whole heart because you believe me to be such a servant
of God as I ought to be. To you, however, I also render many thanks for this,
that you encourage me wonderfully to aspire after such excellence, by your
praising me as i if I had already attained it. Many more thanks! still shall
be yours, if you not only claim an! interest in my prayers, but also cease
not to pray for me. For intercession on behalf of a' brother is more acceptable
to God when it is offered as a sacrifice of love.
3. I greet very kindly your little son, and I pray that he may grow up in
the way of obedience to the salutary requirements of God's law. I desire and
pray, moreover, that the one true faith and worship, which alone is catholic,
.may prosper and increase in your house; and if yore think any labour on my
part necessary for the promotion of this end, do not scruple to claim my service,
relying upon Him who is our common Lord, and upon the law of love which we
must obey. This especially would I recommend to your pious discretion, that
by reading the word of God, and by serious conversation with your partners'
you should either plant the seed or foster the growth in her heart of an intelligent
fear of God. For it is scarcely possible that any one who is concerned for
the soul's welfare, and is therefore without prejudice resolved to know the
will of the Lord, should fail, when enjoying the guidance of a good instructor,
to discern the difference which exists between every,' form of schism and the
one Catholic Church.
LETTER XXI. (A.D. 391.)
TO MY LORD BISHOP VALERIUS, MOST BLESSED AND VENERABLE, MY FATHER MOST WARMLY
CHERISHED WITH TRUE LOVE IN THE SIGHT OF THE LORD, AUGUSTIN, PRESBYTER, SENDS
GREETING IN THE LORD.
1. Before all things I ask your pious wisdom to take into consideration that,
on the one hand, if the duties of the office of a bishop, or presbyter, or
deacon, be discharged in a perfunctory and time-serving manner, no work can
be in this life more easy, agreeable, and likely to secure the favour of men,
especially in our day, but none at the same time more miserable, deplorable,
and worthy of condemnation in the sight of God; and, on the other hand, that
if in the office of bishop, or presbyter, or deacon, tim orders of the Captain
of our salvation be observed, there is no work in this life more difficult,
toilsome, and hazardous, especially in our day, but none at the same time more
blessed in the sight of God.2 But what the proper mode of discharging these
duties is, I did not learn either in boyhood or in the earlier ),ears of manhood;
and at the time when I was beginning to learn it,.I was constrained as a just
correction for my sins (for I know not what else to think) to accept the second
place at the helm, when as yet I knew not how to handle an oar.
2. But I think that it was the purpose of my Lord hereby to rebuke me, because
I presumed, as if entitled by superior knowledge and excellence, to reprove
the faults of many sailors before I had learned by experience the nature of
their work. Therefore, after I had been sent in among them to share their labours,
then I began to feel the rashness of my censures; although even before that
time I judged this office to be beset with many dangers. And hence the tears
which some of my brethren perceived me shedding in the city at the time of
my ordination, and because of which they did their utmost with the best intentions
to console me, but with words which, through their not knowing the causes of
my sorrow, did not reach my case at all.1 But my experience has made me realize
these things much more both in degree and in measure than I had done in merely
thinking of them: not that I have now seen any new waves or storms of which
I had not previous knowledge by observation, or report, or reading, or meditation;
but because I had not known my own skill or strength for avoiding or encountering
them, and had estimated it to be of some value instead of none. The Lord, however,
laughed at me, and was pleased to show me by actual experience. what I am.
3. But if He has done this not in judgment, but in mercy, as I confidently
hope even now, when I have learned my infirmity, my duty is to study with diligence
all the remedies which the Scriptures contain for such a case as mine, and
to make it my business by prayer and reading to secure that my soul be endued
with the health and vigour necessary for labours so responsible. This I have
not yet done, because I have not had time; for I was ordained at the very time
when I was thinking of having, along with others, a season of freedom from
all other occupation, that we might acquaint ourselves with the divine Scriptures,
and was intending to make such arrangements as would secure unbroken leisure
for this great work. Moreover, it is true that I did not at any earlier period
know how great was my unfitness for the arduous work which now disquiets and
crushes my spirit. But if I have by experience learned what is necessary for
a man who ministers to a people in the divine sacraments and word, only to
find myself prevented from now obtaining what I have learned that I do not
possess, do you bid me perish, father Valerius? Where is your charity? Do you
indeed love me? Do you indeed love the Church to which you have appointed me,'
thus unqualified, to minister? I am well assured that you love both; but you
think me qualified, whilst I know myself better; and yet I would not have come
to know myself if I had not learned by experience.
4. Perhaps your Holiness replies: I wish to know what is lacking to fit you
for your office. The things which I lack are so many, that I could more easily
enumerate the things which I have than those which I desire to have. I may
venture to say that I know and unreservedly believe the doctrines pertaining
to our salvation. But my difficulty is in the question how I am to use this
truth in ministering to the salvation of others, seeking what is profitable
not for myself alone, but for many, that they may !be saved. And perhaps there
may be, nay, beyond all question there are, written in the sacred books, counsels
by the knowledge and acceptance of which the man of God may so discharge his
duties to the Church in the things of God, or at least so keep a conscience
void of o(fence in the midst of ungodly men, whether living or dying, as to
secure that that life for which alone humble and meek Christian hearts sigh
is not lost. But how can this be done, except, as the Lord Himself tells us,
by asking, seeking, knocking, that is, by praying, reading, and weeping? For
this I. have by the brethren made the request, which in this petition I now
renew, that a short time, say